How are u feeling? –> “I feel blank.”

I have not told anyone about the existence of this blog. Because I hope that this can remain as my little paradise. My little heaven away from reality where I can write abt my inner feelings without the fear of others finding out. I want to escape.
Two PVAs in 7 months.
1st: 13 august 2010
2nd: 25 march 2011
You wouldn’t understand unless you are me.
The feelings don’t seem to go away.
My mood doesn’t seem to lift and recover.
I have taken a week off work since it happened to escape from reality, from the real world.
But everytime my phone beeps, an SMS from a concerning friend comes in. And the cycle starts all over again.
The bad feelings come gushing right back again.
I can’t seem to escape.
And when I try to, I get thrown back into reality again…
I’m told not to drive again.
I’m told this will affect my ranking.
But all these just seem to numb me.
I’m feeling numb.
I just want to escape, to run away…
From this ALL.